So I'm back in chastity. I've been in for about 2 and a half weeks. I'll be getting out during IML as far as I know but that's about all that I know. It's been an interesting couple of weeks for me though.
I started my first summer semester of grad school and it's kind of been kicking me ass, but I've been doing my best to keep up with the intense schedule and all of the readings. Recently the chastity has been helping me with that by helping not jack off in order to procrastinate.
For the first week and a half though it did not help me one bit! I was so incredibly horny and distracted that I couldn't barely stand it. I played with my hole, sucked some dick and just nothing would help. Then Sir and I got the chance to get together and I've been feeling amazing since! There are moments where I get horny, but not nearly as much before.
And while I'm back in chastity and even after I'm going to make this blog a focus of mine again. There are just too many things going on for me to not have an outlet to have a little rant and rave every once and a while.
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Thursday, February 9, 2012
When did I become a top?
Okay let's be realistic for a moment who knows if I'll ever be a full fledge top, but I'm definitely enjoying it more and more. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that I couldn't use my cock for a year and so I'm ready to give it everything it's been missing out on and some of those things are some nice mouths and asses. It's more than that though, as I've been excited about it. I certainly haven't really been actively seeking boys to top (or dominate) but when bottoms approach me I'm excited by the idea of topping them.
Personally this is a very interesting concept and something I've been thinking about through some conversations with my Sir. (He always finds a way to push me.) Am I going through the transition of boy to Sir, that many people think is simply a natural progression of things? Or am I simply more comfortable and confident in my abilities so I feel better actually agreeing to topping? Well I don't think I'll ever become a true Sir, but ya never know stranger things have happened I'm sure! So I figure it has to be that I'm just growing more confident in my skills and abilities. While I still have much to learn, I think I've begun to realize that I too have things to teach others. How I as a 23 year old have anything to teach others I have no idea, but I'm certainly no longer the newest kid on the block.
So do I have a duty to these boys who need a little introduction into the world of leather, rubber, and bondage....well no not really. But because I am who I am I want to share what I've got, and let's be realistic I wanna have some fun and if that happens to be with a boy (bottom) I've got nothing against that. One way or another I'm getting what I want out of it. Trust me talk to anyone that I "topped" or dominated while I was in chastity and they will tell you I got exactly what I wanted from them!
Though coming back to my point do I (or we as a kinky community but I'll try to stick to I because I certainly don't speak for anyone else) have an obligation to the new recruits to show them the ropes? It's a great question that I can only partially answer. I want to say yes, but I also don't want an obligation to any boy coming up that says "I wanna be kinky, make me kinky." (I have lots of issues with that but that's for a different day.) So yes I'll give them some pointers and head them in all the right directions to get them on their way. If a boy were to say hello, get to know me and then say, "I wanna get tied up and you seem like fun. Can we try it?" my door is wide open. Maybe that's not the same for you, but why not? It's not asking you bring in every stray following you around at the bar, but from time to time give the new boy an experience so he can one day take my spot wondering if he's really able to start teaching others.
Personally this is a very interesting concept and something I've been thinking about through some conversations with my Sir. (He always finds a way to push me.) Am I going through the transition of boy to Sir, that many people think is simply a natural progression of things? Or am I simply more comfortable and confident in my abilities so I feel better actually agreeing to topping? Well I don't think I'll ever become a true Sir, but ya never know stranger things have happened I'm sure! So I figure it has to be that I'm just growing more confident in my skills and abilities. While I still have much to learn, I think I've begun to realize that I too have things to teach others. How I as a 23 year old have anything to teach others I have no idea, but I'm certainly no longer the newest kid on the block.
So do I have a duty to these boys who need a little introduction into the world of leather, rubber, and bondage....well no not really. But because I am who I am I want to share what I've got, and let's be realistic I wanna have some fun and if that happens to be with a boy (bottom) I've got nothing against that. One way or another I'm getting what I want out of it. Trust me talk to anyone that I "topped" or dominated while I was in chastity and they will tell you I got exactly what I wanted from them!
Though coming back to my point do I (or we as a kinky community but I'll try to stick to I because I certainly don't speak for anyone else) have an obligation to the new recruits to show them the ropes? It's a great question that I can only partially answer. I want to say yes, but I also don't want an obligation to any boy coming up that says "I wanna be kinky, make me kinky." (I have lots of issues with that but that's for a different day.) So yes I'll give them some pointers and head them in all the right directions to get them on their way. If a boy were to say hello, get to know me and then say, "I wanna get tied up and you seem like fun. Can we try it?" my door is wide open. Maybe that's not the same for you, but why not? It's not asking you bring in every stray following you around at the bar, but from time to time give the new boy an experience so he can one day take my spot wondering if he's really able to start teaching others.
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Mr. Chicago Leather and lots of other thoughts!
So I've been busy with lots of things lately but
one of the fun things I've been a part of was the Mr. Chicago Leather contest
last weekend at Touché. Congratulations Angel!! It was a lot of fun to get together with other
leathermen and leatherwomen and being a part of that community (and enjoying
the smell of a leather bar full of leather!).
While some people find leather titles to be a little silly or archaic, I find them interesting and intriguing. I cannot say that I've always found them to be such. I mean the first one that I attended I was confused and completely out of the loop as to what was going on. I was just watching sexy men walk across the stage and ogling them. I had no idea these were men that were going to represent my city at IML or to other places as they traveled the event circuit of the year. Nor did I know there was more to the competition that I didn't get to see. That didn't happen until the next year when I watched it with a friend who's partner happened to be competing in the event.
I learned so much about the competition and how it was actually a serious event where these men wanted to represent the leathermen of Chicago. They have a desire to better the community from which they come that has helped make them who they are. Part of this may still be lost on me, but I at least think I have a better understanding of what it means for someone to be a titleholder.
I have to say this year I really paid attention though. I paid attention to how the men presented themselves, and how they actually answered the question they were asked (and yes still ogled a little, they were hot!). It was interesting because I felt like I had an opinion on what they were saying as if I was really a part of the community, which they are going to represent, but somehow at the same time I felt not a part of it.
In many ways I know I'm a part of the community. By nature being a leatherboy I am a part of the leather community, but it seems there are so many parts that are greatly unknown to me. Part of me really doesn't know why I feel this disconnect between myself and the community, but then I look around the room and begin to understand it (or at least think I do) slightly. The majority of the men around me are easily 10-15 years my senior. I have no issue with this these men are wonderful and have so much to pass on, but where are my peers?
As was wonderfully said at the contest, the pups of today are the dogs of tomorrow. Where are my fellow boys (pups) who want to be the men (dogs) of tomorrow? I can't be the only one wanting to be a part of this process of being mentored and brought up through the ranks. Together we can keep this community alive and thriving, but alone we stand in our corners and hope someone does something to keep it alive for us.
This is our community too! We may not have as much experience as those men around us, but we have ideas, we have the ability, we can do it. It's not time to sit around and wait until we get called upon to take the lead, it's time to take the step and be a part of the now so when it's our turn to really take the lead we can do it and show those boys how to take the lead one day!
While some people find leather titles to be a little silly or archaic, I find them interesting and intriguing. I cannot say that I've always found them to be such. I mean the first one that I attended I was confused and completely out of the loop as to what was going on. I was just watching sexy men walk across the stage and ogling them. I had no idea these were men that were going to represent my city at IML or to other places as they traveled the event circuit of the year. Nor did I know there was more to the competition that I didn't get to see. That didn't happen until the next year when I watched it with a friend who's partner happened to be competing in the event.
I learned so much about the competition and how it was actually a serious event where these men wanted to represent the leathermen of Chicago. They have a desire to better the community from which they come that has helped make them who they are. Part of this may still be lost on me, but I at least think I have a better understanding of what it means for someone to be a titleholder.
I have to say this year I really paid attention though. I paid attention to how the men presented themselves, and how they actually answered the question they were asked (and yes still ogled a little, they were hot!). It was interesting because I felt like I had an opinion on what they were saying as if I was really a part of the community, which they are going to represent, but somehow at the same time I felt not a part of it.
In many ways I know I'm a part of the community. By nature being a leatherboy I am a part of the leather community, but it seems there are so many parts that are greatly unknown to me. Part of me really doesn't know why I feel this disconnect between myself and the community, but then I look around the room and begin to understand it (or at least think I do) slightly. The majority of the men around me are easily 10-15 years my senior. I have no issue with this these men are wonderful and have so much to pass on, but where are my peers?
As was wonderfully said at the contest, the pups of today are the dogs of tomorrow. Where are my fellow boys (pups) who want to be the men (dogs) of tomorrow? I can't be the only one wanting to be a part of this process of being mentored and brought up through the ranks. Together we can keep this community alive and thriving, but alone we stand in our corners and hope someone does something to keep it alive for us.
This is our community too! We may not have as much experience as those men around us, but we have ideas, we have the ability, we can do it. It's not time to sit around and wait until we get called upon to take the lead, it's time to take the step and be a part of the now so when it's our turn to really take the lead we can do it and show those boys how to take the lead one day!
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
What's up with the title?
I find myself to be in a bit of an interesting place as I hear the conversations go on about the clashing of the Old Guard and the New Guard. I'm a child of this new generation being talked about that needs to get into the leather bars and keep the community alive. I couldn't agree more! I love being in my local leather bars in gear hanging out with like minded men enjoying our kinks together. Not every weekend and every time I go out, but it's definitely nice to go and be welcomed by friends each time I go.
Though I have to say I know this isn't the experience that everyone has when they go into a leather bar. Some feel out of place without a piece of leather or rubber on, and others feel as if they can't break into the groups of guys already standing around having a beer and sharing a laugh. I find these tragedies, but I'll be the first to admit I'm not the first one to walk up to them and say hello and welcome them into my group of friends or just strike up a conversation with them.
But I've digressed, how is it that we want to welcome new people into our community to keep it alive and thriving when the people already trying can barely make it in? Who are we to be welcoming people in when we have dissonance amongst ourselves about how our community should act, "Old or New Guard"?
Well I'll tell you I think it's gonna be real tough. I do not claim to be an expert on Old Guard or New Guard for that matter, or even what the terms really refer to. I do know the people who are a part of both worlds are not that different from one another and really want the same things and would benefit from the many mutual ideals, but as all people are too stubborn to acknowledge. So for me knowing people on both sides and really enjoying and understanding aspects from each side of this topic I find I hold an interesting perspective and hope to share it with you all.
Though I have to say I know this isn't the experience that everyone has when they go into a leather bar. Some feel out of place without a piece of leather or rubber on, and others feel as if they can't break into the groups of guys already standing around having a beer and sharing a laugh. I find these tragedies, but I'll be the first to admit I'm not the first one to walk up to them and say hello and welcome them into my group of friends or just strike up a conversation with them.
But I've digressed, how is it that we want to welcome new people into our community to keep it alive and thriving when the people already trying can barely make it in? Who are we to be welcoming people in when we have dissonance amongst ourselves about how our community should act, "Old or New Guard"?
Well I'll tell you I think it's gonna be real tough. I do not claim to be an expert on Old Guard or New Guard for that matter, or even what the terms really refer to. I do know the people who are a part of both worlds are not that different from one another and really want the same things and would benefit from the many mutual ideals, but as all people are too stubborn to acknowledge. So for me knowing people on both sides and really enjoying and understanding aspects from each side of this topic I find I hold an interesting perspective and hope to share it with you all.
It's good to be back!
For those of you who haven't read my previous blog perhaps it's confusing for me to say it's good to be back, but it really is! (If you're curious about the other one take a look, yearunderlockandkey.blogspot.com)
This blog will be of a very different variety for those of you who were following A Year Under Lock and Key, but I think you'll still enjoy it. For you chastity enthusiasts don't worry I'll be bringing it back every now and then I'm sure.
This blog will be more dedicated to my ramblings and thoughts on the kinky world. There are many important things going on in the community right now. I'd like to do my part to help put them out there and perhaps educate someone or throw a different view point into the mix. But don't worry I won't spend my whole time on a soap box, I will include stories of my exploits, other stories I find or decide to write and many other things.
So I hope you will enjoy this blog as much as other seemed to enjoy A Year Under Lock and Key!
This blog will be of a very different variety for those of you who were following A Year Under Lock and Key, but I think you'll still enjoy it. For you chastity enthusiasts don't worry I'll be bringing it back every now and then I'm sure.
This blog will be more dedicated to my ramblings and thoughts on the kinky world. There are many important things going on in the community right now. I'd like to do my part to help put them out there and perhaps educate someone or throw a different view point into the mix. But don't worry I won't spend my whole time on a soap box, I will include stories of my exploits, other stories I find or decide to write and many other things.
So I hope you will enjoy this blog as much as other seemed to enjoy A Year Under Lock and Key!
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